wahoo. ;]]

i got my first 2 followers, thanks guys! aha:)

it doesn't matter if no body is reading, write for yourself and you'll be satisfied.

but it is nice to know that 2 very nice people took the time to look at my blog.

its only 2.30 but so, its made my day! wahoo. :D

well, after spending this weekend alone , i've had a lot of time to do eff all.

i've spent most of my time reading blogs, 

and i think it has put everything into perspective. 

when you don't talk to people about those thoughts gathering inside your

head, you start to believe that you are the only one. you're an outsider due

to the fact you won't let anyone in. but after reading a flip load of blogs,

which in fairness are some peoples inner most thoughts, i've come to the

conclusion that everyone has their own problems, and for a lot of people

its the same problem. if you can find someone to share your experiences 

with, it might just get a lot easier. the questions floating around your

head could be answered. "am i thin enough?" "why do they love me?" 

"will i ever get to the place i want to be?" 

everyone has the same insecurities, with different ways of battling them.

find someone going through the same battle,

and you've found your way out.

being a sunday, i think i'll have a duvet day. read some more blogs,

catch up on shitty tv, maybe write something?

anything to keep my mind occupied. 

a wandering mind can create chaos.

and i've had my fair share of chaos.

& i'll leave you with a little poem. (:

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Undesired Thoughts.

Nothing can come of nothing: speak again.
For when silence steals your tongue
your mind begs to stay unknown,
such thoughts should not be released
from the cage in which they've grown.
O! let me not be mad, not mad, sweet heaven.
Beg forgiveness;
the gods may hear your final plea
and in the hope of redemption
such thoughts may once roam free.

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' Line 1 and 6 are quotes from King Lear

'  Based on Schizophrenia

-- jellyworm