and though i may not look like much, i'm yours.

:'(

went out for lunch today. big mistake.

got a wrap, with sweetcorn, peppers and cucumber. not too bad?

i hadnt eaten all day so i was quite hungry.

the wrap came with egg mayo & crisps.

of course i couldnt stop myself.

i felt pretty bad, BUT just planned to go for a run.

makes it all even. 

walking through town back to the bus.

decide to buy some strawberrys for tomorrows brekkie.

one of the girls i was with made this statement :

"you could NOT be hungry after the amount you ate".

bus home. tears. purge. more tears.

i promised myself i would NOT fall back into that routine.

it controlled my life for way too long.

and i want to do this my way, the healthy way.

i hate myself for going back there.

where is my self control.

wtf.

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while i was writing that ^ i got quite upset so decided to take a break

and paint my nails. (always helps me relax) [;

wanna see? aha.

ima use this blog forget about today.

tomorrow is a new day. :)

& ima reply to recent comments i've gotten from you guys :D

really need to keep my mind bussyyyyy. 

Lottie : I'm using my brothers scale, and he's currently going through

a crazy ass boy fitness thingymabob ahah. so every morning its gone up 

to his room again! which is good i guess, makes me not weigh

too much and get disheartened! weight day tomorrow! eek! :)

also i look forward to your comments(and blog) ahah.

youre such a sweetie :) <3

Elle Marie : I find if you're self conscious about your body dresses are the way to go!

especially maxis, cos they show NOTHING yet are still in style atm. :)

you can do so much with them as well! ima sucker for dresses. ahaha.

short or maxi...cant do mid length cos i dont have the height! ha.

Wings to Set me Free : I cannot believe i'm doing this, but, im actually gonna 

be in the dress for the photo ahah. its the one i took when i was trying it on

to show my mother as she was in work :P

i was extremely afraid of posting a photo with me in it, but fuck it.

i gotta start somewhere, and maybe this time next year ill take another 

in the same dress ;) ahaha.

here it is hunni, imagine with heels and whatnot ;)

also; here in ireland to get into college/uni you need a certain amount of points

for your course, each grade you get in your final exams = certain points.

ex: a1 = 100 points. 

anyways, i didnt get my points so im repeating the year:)

ooooh & about the poem, ima give the inspiration in a comment under it.

cos itd be too cluttered here, aha. :D

unbeautiful : I used to weigh daily, but i got way too obsessed.

couldnt concentrate on anything else, and life just wasn't fun.

but damn, change is hard. aha.

i meant the queen of england aha, sorry! shes having a visit in ireland:P

woah i would not be able to get up that early! im a bed lover.

id stay here for the month if i was allowed. ;D

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I have 16 followers! holy jeebus! ahhaha.

i best try read&comment on blogs before i pass out!

:)

--jellyworms <3