screw you assumptions & can I have my life back please? cheers.

well this will be a two piece post, so it may get long <3

first of all, i was discussing with a girl in work today

about how assumptions can really hurt. deep down.

it reminded me of my best friend, lets call her Lily.

she was always curvy, but not fat. well toned ya know?

gorgeous girl, breath taking. big boobs, nice stomach.

amazing face. the kinda girl you'd stop to look at.

then out of no where she started to lose weight at

a horrific rate. i had lived with her for a few weeks,

and spent nearly every meal time with her. she had 

a appetite however still managed to lose it.

everyone assumed she was starving herself. or over exercising.

or something, unhealthy! they broke her. she loved the size she was.

she didn't want to change. and no matter how much i explained

this to people they still called her anorexic and attention seeking.

she withdrew herself from these people, obviously. 

the assumptions they were making were enough to ruin her,

but she stayed strong. just under a year ago she was diagnosed with cancer.

Hodgkin lymphomas to be specific, stage 2B? well yeah, that was what was

causing the weight loss. the fatigue. the uncontrollable itching (scratching her skin).

she rang me when she was diagnosed, and thanked me for

never assuming she was doing it to herself. we cried. a lot.

when she started letting people know, of course everyone who had

assumed otherwise were sucking up to her. it was pathetic.

their assumptions had ruined half a year of her life. 

now, nearly a year on she is nearly fully recovered, not finished treatment yet 

but very close. shes been so damn strong, so brave and just plain amazing.

i guess what i'm trying to say, is when you make assumptions,

you have NO IDEA what could really be going on. weight loss can be due to 

MANY different things. anorexia is a painful painful journey.

and some people may never be able to fight it, 

so its not something you throw around in assumptions. 

either get your facts straight, or just don't bother. you can create a name for a person.

and thats not your right. 

Gosh that was a ramble. sorry. :/

Second part :

this job is leaving me with no time to do anything.

im going to oxegen next week. (music festival.)

hopefully everyone will remember who i am.

ahahah. and have this weekend off. 

hello wine. i have missed you <3 ;)

side note; weight loss going well & healthy. 

will have more updates. <3

the good part of work is I'm on my feet all day, 

and don't get a chance to snack. ;)